Today I was frustrated. Frustrated that my Bride had a different agenda in mind for my morning that I did. Frustrated that expectations were put on me that I didn’t necessarily know about or agree to.
I was frustrated.
Then I realized, as I talked it out with God on my way to the office, that maybe my frustration was not with other people or agendas or expectation that were put on me. Maybe I brought all that on by not communicating well with my Bride. Maybe I need to be presenting realistic expectations for other to be able to count on. Expectations of when and where I will be. How long a task will take. What time I’m going to get up in the morning and what type of things I’m going to get done that day.
All these things seemed to be at the heart of my frustration in what I thought was someone else’s issue. In truth, it’s my issue.
So. What next? I have to start presenting realistic expectation for the people in my life. This will be difficult at first, I am a very ‘fly by the seat of my pants’ kind of guy when it comes to me. That’s selfish. I have more that me to take care of. I’m going to need to be deliberate in what I do and how I plan.
It all comes back to self-control and discipline. Two things that I am continually working on.
A man without self-control is like a city broken into and left without walls. – Proverbs 25:28
A city without walls is vulnerable and open to attack, like my frustration this morning which tried to lead me into anger. I want to avoid that at all costs. Becoming more purposeful in what do and showing self-control will also set a good example for my kids whom I desperately want to teach excellence to.
Time to start rebuilding the walls…
I felt the baby kick for the first time tonight. It never gets old. It’s an amazimg thing, to me, that a little person grows inside of our wives. Amazing!
Oh, in case you didn’t know… Kristie is pregnant again with our fourth. We are due in early March, well….. she is.
We just had a really good ultrasound this week and the kids got to see the baby moving around. They were pretty excited. Being a new Daddy again is pretty cool.
As most people now know, I have taken a full-time position with the Fellowship of Christian Athletes in Bloomington/Normal, IL as of October 1st.
We also just bought a house in Normal. hopefully we’ll close around the beginning of November. Timing will be tricky though, we have several things floating around the weekends end of October and beginning of November. We can’t wait to move in though. It’s a little ranch with finished basement space big enough for a family room/play room and Kristie’s business office. Oh, you hadn’t heard about JustSoSmitten.com? Check it out. Kristie has been hard at work filling orders and making gifts. She absolutely loves it and it gives her a creative outlet she has been missing.
I’m going to keep this updated on how we are doing and how God is using us in BloNo (yes, that’s the official term for Bloomington/Normal. You heard it here first). We’re still deciding on a church home and looking for ways to get plugged in. Kristie is already in a moms group and I just had lunch yesterday with some good friends that I hadn’t seen in probably 10 years. It was great to catch up and I’m looking forward to starting those relationships again.
We’ll talk again soon…
Just when I said I was going to post more often, I slack for over a month. Anyway, I’m up late tonight because Kristie is out making Bulk Meals with some girlfriends. This is a HUGE deal for our family. It keeps our freezer full and costs down. Plus, there are some really good meals that come out of it! This is just 1 more reason I thank God for Kristie on a regular basis. THANK YOU GOD!
::Here are some recent goings on for us::
- Caleb and Emmry caught their first fish this summer! (pictures will come soon)
- We saw 2 deer on a walk at the park a couple days ago. Literally 15 feet away, staring at us while they ate.
- The kids are growing up too fast. Ansley talks so much now and gets into everything! We lovingly call her ‘Captain Destructo’.
- Enjoying as much time with friends as possible.
It’s been a good summer so far. God has blessed us!
Oh man, it’s been a long time since I’ve written on here… months.
So, kids and family are doing well. I’ve been busy with work. We’re trying to make the most of this summer and do things in St. Louis that we haven’t done before.
We’re trying to watch less TV (Tivo is off now) so, I’m making an effort to read more. I had great intentions to start a 2009 reading list and power through it, but I’m still on the same book. That is very sad. As I’m reading more this summer, I’m going to write more.
So, until I have something new to say (which is hopefully sooner rather than later)…