Rebuilding the walls
Today I was frustrated. Frustrated that my Bride had a different agenda in mind for my morning that I did. Frustrated that expectations were put on me that I didn’t necessarily know about or agree to.
I was frustrated.
Then I realized, as I talked it out with God on my way to the office, that maybe my frustration was not with other people or agendas or expectation that were put on me. Maybe I brought all that on by not communicating well with my Bride. Maybe I need to be presenting realistic expectations for other to be able to count on. Expectations of when and where I will be. How long a task will take. What time I’m going to get up in the morning and what type of things I’m going to get done that day.
All these things seemed to be at the heart of my frustration in what I thought was someone else’s issue. In truth, it’s my issue.
So. What next? I have to start presenting realistic expectation for the people in my life. This will be difficult at first, I am a very ‘fly by the seat of my pants’ kind of guy when it comes to me. That’s selfish. I have more that me to take care of. I’m going to need to be deliberate in what I do and how I plan.
It all comes back to self-control and discipline. Two things that I am continually working on.
A man without self-control is like a city broken into and left without walls. – Proverbs 25:28
A city without walls is vulnerable and open to attack, like my frustration this morning which tried to lead me into anger. I want to avoid that at all costs. Becoming more purposeful in what do and showing self-control will also set a good example for my kids whom I desperately want to teach excellence to.
Time to start rebuilding the walls…